Sunday, February 19, 2012

So many choices... or are there?

These days, a lot of people are questioning whether homosexuality is a choice, or if it is something biological. Society has become a place where no one is safe. Whether you’re black, white, tall, or short; someone is out to get you. It doesn’t matter where you live or what your social status is, there is going to be someone that will try and tear you down based on something you can’t control. I choose to believe that homosexuality is something you are born with.

Here are some scary statistics:
• 36.5 % of GLB youth grades 9-12 have attempted suicide. 20.5% of those attempts resulting in medical care. (Robin, L., Brener, N.D., Donahue, S.F., Hack, T., Hale, K., Goodenow, C. (2002). Associations between health risk behaviors and opposite-, same-, and both-sex sexual partners in representative samples of Vermont and Massachusetts high school students. Archives of Pediatric and Adolescent Medicine, 156(4): pp. 349-55.) • Gay and lesbian youth are 2 to 3 times more likely to attempt suicide than heterosexual young people. (Rotheram–Borus, M., Hunter, J., & Rosario, M. (1994). Suicidal behavior and gay-related stress among gay and bisexual male adolescents. Journal of adolescent research, 9 (4), pp. 498 – 508.) • As many as 1 in 3 gay and lesbian youth have attempted suicide. (Remafedi, G., Farrow, J.A., & Deisher, R.W. (1991). Risk factors for attempted suicide in gay and bisexual youth. Pediatrics, 87, pp. 869–875.) • In a 1998 health survey conducted by Youth Pride, Inc. aimed at LGBTQQ youth, 58% of respondents reported that they had felt suicidal as teenagers. 82.9% of LGBT students report that faculty or staff never intervened or intervened only some of the time when present and homophobic remarks were made. (All from GLSEN. (2003). The 2003 national school climate survey: the school related experiences of our nation’s lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender youth.) FBI data shows that in 2005, 13.8% of hate crimes in the U.S.A., a total of 1,213 attacks, were motivated by bias against the victim's sexual orientation. 61.3% of those were committed against men who were or were perceived to be gay, while 1.9% of victims were or were perceived to be straight. (Robin L., Brener N.D., Donahue S.F., Hack T., Hale K., Goodenow C. Associations between health risk behaviors and opposite-, same-, and both-sex sexual partners in representative samples of Vermont and Massachusetts high school students. Archive Pediatric Adolescent Medicine. 2002 Apr. 156(4):349-55.)
No one chooses that! I don’t care what anyone says, but no one chooses to be degraded and threatened every day of their lives. The teen suicide rate has gone up dramatically in the last few years as a result of bigotry and hatred. Society tells us it’s a sin to be gay and that gay people don’t get the same rights as straight people. Says who? When did politics and religion go together? When did separation of church and state go out the window? Who says a heterosexual marriage is more likely to last than a homosexual marriage.

The bible tells us that the purpose of sex is procreation and sex was meant to be between a man and a woman. So what about the woman that can’t bear children? What is her purpose in this world? If sex is for procreation, then why does a woman’s ability to do so decrease with age? Science tells us that sex is also meant for pleasure. Our bodies, both male and female, were designed to experience pleasure during sex.

There are studies being done that suggest that homosexuality is biological. I completely agree with this. I know it sounds cliché, but you can’t choose who you are attracted to and who you fall in love with. A man doesn’t wake up one morning next to his wife and all of a sudden decide he’s going to start dating men. It doesn’t work that way, and I’d dare someone to prove otherwise.

 I am a Christian woman and I believe with all of my heart in Jesus and his teachings. But the fact of the matter is, Jesus never said anything about homosexuality. A lot of the teachings in the bible are out dated and were meant for a different time. Why it is that society is so stuck on homosexuality, but ignores the fact that the bible also says that we shouldn’t plant different crops in the same field, psychics and mediums are to be stoned to death- the bible also says that if anyone lives amongst you who worships a different god then they should be stoned to death! Seriously?

All in all, I believe in equal rights for EVERYONE. I believe that being gay is no more of a choice than being black is. People question my motives, and why I speak out about things like gay rights and a woman’s right to choose. I believe that God put these passions in my heart and the fire in my eyes. God drives me to fight for the rights of others, He compels me to speak up for those who can't speak for themselves, and He commands me to love everyone with every fiber of my being.

 “When the sun rises, it rises for EVERYONE.”

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“If you let your past dictate your future,
You will live the rest of your life walking backwards”

Monday, November 28, 2011

What is love? Baby, don't hurt hurt me!

"Love! I'm doing this for love! And love will see me through, yes with love on my side I can't lose..."

What is the definition of love? I used to think I knew, but lately I'm finding that my theories are falling a bit short. Is love dropping everything for one person? Is it cutting yourself off from the rest of the world? Is it sacrificing everything you believe in? Is it changing who you are to accommodate the needs and wants of someone else? Hmm.. it's rather tough to define love. Elle Woods got accepted into Harvard Law School and decided to become a Lawyer in order to prove her love for Warner. She changed her ways and left her comfort zone for him- and then ended up marrying someone else! Merriam-Webster defines love as:
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a (1) : strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties love for a child> (2) : attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) : affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interest 
Sounds simple enough, I suppose. In all honesty, I don't really vibe with their definition. I think it takes a lot more to really love someone. It takes even more to express it. I am the type of person who thrives on love. I can't think of anything anything more exciting than loving and being loved. So why is it so hard for me to define it? If you ask anyone who knows me they will tell you that all I want in life is to be married with lots of babies. I have no problem starting or being in a relationship- but if you ask me to talk about it,  I will draw a huge Shaq-sized blank!

So to what lengths will we go for love? There are many examples in history and literature to show just how far a person will go. Romeo and  Juliet committed suicide. Jack let Rose lay on the floating door so she didn't freeze to death, resulting in his own demise. I would do anything for the people I love- that much I do know. I hope I am never in the position to need to make such a crazy decision, but I'd take a bullet if I had to.

Sorry for rambling on and on, but I really am just trying to gauge how to define love. I guess it's different for everyone but I feel like there has to be some kind of common ground. Am I in love right now? Well... I don't know really. It's hard to tell if it's actually love I'm in, or if I am just in love with the idea of being in love... confused, yet? Try being in my shoes!


Music of my heart


So I used to think I was an awesome writer of all things including music, poetry, stories. I’ll admit I used to write AWESOME horror stories that actually got me in a lot of trouble in the fifth grade. There was a time when I thought I was also a song write… hahahah I was seriously mistaken. But poetry, in any form, is still poetry so I thought I would share some with you all! Please keep in mind I was 12-14 when I wrote these!


“Everywhere I go”
Everywhere I go everything I do
I just can’t stop smiling about you
With every single breath I watch the way you move
You make me feel complete like no one else can do

You are the one, the one who has my heart
I knew I loved you from the very start
Your passionate stare, the light within your soul
When I finally have you, I’ll never let you go

Everywhere I go everything I do
I just can’t stop smiling about you
With every single breath I watch the way you move
You make me feel complete like no one else can do

You are the one, the one who has my back
The only one who knows what makes me laugh
You are the one that I turn to
The one that does the things
That no one else can do
I’ll be there to make you smile
I’ll be there whenever you need me
Just hold on, don’t fight this feeling
I’ll be yours to love for eternity
I’m the girl you been searching for
Don’t look back, my future is yours

Everywhere I go everything I do
I just can’t stop smiling about you
With every single breath I watch the way you move
You make me feel complete like no one else can do

Everywhere I go everything I do
I just can’t stop smiling about you
With every single breath I watch the way you move
You make me feel complete like no one else can do

I couldn't even begin to tell you who I wrote this about, but I can tell you that it is TOTALLY relevant to my life today! LoL.. hope this made you smile :D


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“If you let your past dictate your future,
You will live the rest of your life walking backwards”

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Welcome to the good life

Lately, I have been trying to find things to do that don’t involve going out and being up all night. Not that I don’t enjoy going out and dancing with my my girls- I love it, in fact- but sometimes I just like to do something relaxing.  Some of my friends call me a grandma because of this, but it doesn’t really bother me. So here is a list of low-key activities I enjoy doing:

1. Walking the waterfront in Tacoma- I love doing this for a number of reasons. If I go with a friend, it gives us a chance to just spend time reconnecting. We can talk, laugh and cry together. I love going alone too. It’s gorgeous out, there are a million places to rest and take in the sights. It’s great for spending time in thought and with the Lord. There are ALWAYS cute guys running and biking… oh- and it just so happens to be a great workout :)

2. Spending the day in Barnes n Noble- No, this does not make me weird! I LOVE reading. I read all types of books and never get tired of them. Reading is SO relaxing and it’s a great time to learn something new, or expand your knowledge on a subject you already know and love! The reason I choose BN every time is because they have thousands of books, lots of seating- chairs, floors- and STARBUCKS! It’s the perfect way to spend a rainy day!

3. Reruns- I love putting on my pjs, fuzzy socks, popping some pop corn and watching reruns of my favorite shows. Usually, I watch Criminal Minds, Friends, Grey’s Anatomy or Army Wives…. my 4 favorite shows ever!

This are my 3 favorite things to do when I just want to relax or lay low. They may seem boring to some, but to me- they’re heaven

So, like, then why are you single?

Ahh.... the age old question. Nothing gives me hives more than when someone, after asking for my opinion on their dating situation, asks why I am still single. I want to meet the woman or man that first asked someone this. WHY is it any of YOUR business why I am still single? You came to ME for the advice, so clearly you thought I had some sort of knowledge you'd benefit from me dropping on you?

Okay, so now that I am done ranting I should probably answer the question. Well, to be truthful, I don't know why I am still single. I am not by any means being arrogant, just being honest. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I think I'm pretty smart, funny, outgoing and attractive. I'm not Jennifer Aniston or anything but I think I'm a catch.. Okay you know what?? TOOT TOOT!

But seriously, the reason I am single is simple... I TAKE MY OWN DAMN ADVICE!. It's not hard people. Practice what you preach! I am very traditional in many ways. I am a woman who likes to be pursued. I don't want to run around chasing after guys all the time. Can you say pathetic? Sweetie, if he hasn't called you after a date and its been a week- he's not going to call you. Move on while you still have some dignity. Men are not complex creatures, ladies. Also, if you only see him after 10pm and one of you isn't spending the night at the other's- RUN. He's not looking to make you the future Mrs... he's probably not even looking to make you his next dinner date!

Another reason is because I know what I will and what I will not tolerate. Ladies, please educate me on something because I feel like I am out of the loop! Why on earth would you keep getting yourself into the same situations over and over again. If you're miserable today, you're probably going to be miserable tomorrow. I'm not saying relationships are supposed to be raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens all of the time. But,seriously! If you cry more than you laugh, and doubt more than you believe then you should probably just move on. I mean, when there are friends in our lives who constantly make us feel bad about ourselves or are toxic to our lives- we get rid of them! Why should it be any different than the men we date? Maybe I'm missing something, but I don't take to kindly to heartbreak!

Know your worth ladies! Someone out there is going to love you unconditionally! You don't have to settle any longer. When you find someone who knows you inside and out, loves you for you, and calls you just to say hi, kisses you in the morning when you haven't brushed your teeth yet.. THAT'S when you know you've got a keeper! No more feeling like you aren't good enough. Be picky, damnit! Know how you SHOULD be treated and go with that. If you are in a relationship and feel like you can't win or your feel like HE has settled, walk away. You deserve better.

I may constantly give out amazing relationship advice- but know that I am also talking to myself. I would rather be single the rest of my life than feel like I've settled. So, like, THAT is why I'm single and lovin' it!


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“If you let your past dictate your future,
You will live the rest of your life walking backwards”

There she goes just-a walkin' down the street..

Alright- you're probably wondering who I am and why I'm so random.. well.. I can tell you who I am but I don't know if I've yet figured out the random part...


Name: I think you've already figured this one out, but if not- It's Brittany! Yes, B-R-I-T-T-A-N-Y.. the proper way to spell it. This was one of the most common names when I was born. School was HELL because there was always another Brittany in my classes. There are many different ways to spell Brittany, but the spelling my parents used is the correct, straight from France way to spell it. Other popular variations are Britney, Brittnee, Britany, Brittni, Brittney.. there's way too many!

Age: I just turned 25... big. freaking. WOOP! There is absolutely nothing exciting about being 25, single and with no kids.. just sayin'... hahah

Locale: I live in the beautiful state of Washington. Yes, the "rainy" state. Okay people, it rains more in Florida, seriously. I love living here. We have such beautiful scenery! The people are awesome! A lot of great things have come from Washington! Starbucks, Microsoft, Boeing, Amazon, Bing Crosby, Grunge music- okay.. so maybe not everything to come out of Washington state is great.. but you get the point!

Activities: I am into a wide range of things. Singing, dancing, reading, writing, camping, sports... oh sports.. I love me some sports. Let's talk about it for a minute. I am probably the biggest sports fan I know. I love everything about sports. I basically schedule my life around them. My favorites are the NFL, NBA, and MLB. Seahawks, Chargers, Mariners, Celtics and The Sonics.. yes, I will always love the Sonics. I know they aren't actually a team anymore but I will forever be a fan.. okay, you know what, I don't want to talk about it anymore.. it's taking me to a bad place...

Passions: The military. I am 100% a supporter of the military. My entire family is involved in the military somehow. In my family, you're either in it, working for it or married to it. Well, except me. I'm working on it. I think our men and women in uniform get completely taken for granted by the American people. They don't make enough money to live, let alone to justify the work they do.God. Yes, I am a God-fearing person. No, I am not going to knock on your door with a Bible, but I am not ashamed of the Gospel. At. All. Family- they are more important to me than anything else in this world.

Politics: Oooh politics.. one of my favorite subjects. I am registered Democrat. Yes, I voted for President Obama. Why? Well, I'll get into that another day. I tend to consider myself very middle of the road. It really depends on the issue.

Well that is a very short list of the things that make me, me. Honestly, I am in the middle of watching a Criminal Minds marathon and it's very distracting. So, if there is anything your curious little minds want to know, please, don't hesitate to ask!
You can also follow me on Twitter.. @IamBrittanyGray

*B*
“If you let your past dictate your future,
You will live the rest of your life walking backwards”

If I did it.. part two!

This will probably be the title of the book that will be written by a ghostwriter with Casey Anthony’s name slapped on the front. I wonder what the Lifetime movie will be called… “The Sacrifices we make for a shot of tequila”? Okay, okay.. You’re probably lumping me in with the group of people who “publicly convicted” Casey Anthony. No, I am not in any way related to or affiliated with Nancy Grace- I promise. All I know, is I have been following this case since the news broke out. I have followed the trial and gone over both the prosecution and the defense’s sides and this is 100% my opinion based on the information we’ve all been provided.

So by now, we all know what happened. In July 2008, Caylee Marie Anthony was reported missing. Cindy Anthony, Casey’s mom, called the police to report that Casey had stolen her car. She called the police again to report that Casey said Caylee had been missing for weeks. Casey was taken into custody the next day after deputies said she told them she worked at Universal Orlando Resort, but when they took her there Casey admitted she lied to them. She also lied to them about who had been taking care of Caylee. She had been telling her parents that a nanny, Zenaida Gonzalez, had been watching Caylee while she was at work. Gonzalez said she did not know, nor had she ever met Casey or Caylee Anthony. At this point, she was charged with lying to investigators and interfering with an investigation as well as child neglect. Casey’s attorney came out and said there were other suspects in the case, but were not providing anymore information. Casey was released from prison toward the end of August and re-arrested a week later after surveillance videos showed Casey using forged checks. Casey was eventually released again, but then turned herself in after new charges unrelated to the disappearance came up.

I won’t go over the next year and a half of events in detail. During this time, there were missed scheduled appointments by multiple members of the Anthony family. The original judge in the case stepped down. Jurors were selected and the “public conviction” began.

The whole point of a trial is not to prove guilt or innocence. It really all comes down to which side can prove their story better. Who has the most evidence? Who’s testimonies and closing arguments are more believable? One big factor in this trial is that it was being tried as a capital murder case.. This means death penalty. That’s huge, and honestly, I’m not sure if I would have rendered a guilty verdict with the information provided.

The problem for the prosecution is that they had tons of evidence- circumstantial evidence. Yes, Casey had a history of lying to the police and to the world essentially, but there was not really any factual evidence. They had suspicious odors, evidence of chloroform- which Casey said she would use to make Caylee fall asleep because she had trouble sleeping , commonly used laundry bags and the fact that Casey, did not report the disappearance of her daughter until thirty one days after she’d been missing.

As the story goes, Caylee Anthony accidentally drowned in the family’s pool. Then months later the body was found in a swampy area. Sooo… what happened? Why wait so long to report her missing? Why were there Google searches about “neck breaking,” “shovel,” and “how to make chloroform”??? Are you kidding me? Come on people. This has “if the glove doesn’t fit, you must acquit” written all over it. They even brought in a K-9 cadaver dog named Gerus who indicated human decomposition in the trunk of Casey’s car.

After 349 pieces of evidence, spectator outbursts, tears and closing arguments the jury went into a 10 hour and 40 minute deliberation. Casey Anthony is found not guilty on all counts except providing false evidence to a law enforcement officer. Here’s what I think happened:
The jury is sitting in a room with a ton of evidence that most of us would look at and agree that Casey has to be guilty. The duct tape was the same duct tape that was found being used in the Anthony home. The Google searches alone were startling. She didn’t call the police immediately when Caylee supposedly drowned in the family pool. She lied to police. She has a history of fraudulent activity. All signs point to Casey! But, with the death penalty on the table, with someone’s life in your hands and nothing actually putting Casey at the scene of the crime… would you be able to raise your hand and say she’s guilty?? There are way too many holes in the prosecutions case. I personally think she’s guilty, but I don’t think she acted alone- nor do I think this crime warrants the death penalty. There’s just something about George Anthony that rubs me the wrong way. The whole Anthony clan, in fact. Unfortunately, there is no justice for little Caylee Anthony today. Someone, whoever it is, is walking around carrying the weight of what they’ve done on their shoulders. If it was Casey, she will never be brought forth for the crime. She will never have to answer to any of us for it. She can’t be convicted of it or anything else related to this trial. It’s really unfortunate.

So what happens now? Well, already there are death threats against people wanting to interview her. I’m sure she’s received a few herself. She will probably get a book deal and a movie. Like I said before, she won’t actually write the book, but she’ll receive the credit. In a few months, I am sure Lifetime or Oxygen will buy the rights to make a movie about the “Trial of the Century”. Through all of this, little Caylee Marie Anthony has been forgotten. Both the prosecution and the defense have failed to recognize that this is about justice for Caylee, not determining who has the better case. So, RIP little angel.. You’re in my thoughts and prayers always!

*B*
“If you let your past dictate your future,
You will live the rest of your life walking backwards”