Waiting part 1

Most girls my age are on their 3rd or 4th sexual partners, some even more. Others have had their first babies. This is not a trend I plan on following. Sex used to be something you weren’t supposed to discuss, let alone do out of wedlock. Then, sex became something what was sacred and was only supposed to be shared with the person you were having it with. Now the meaning of sex is unclear. It has become something that all of the “cool kids” are doing. Everyone is having sex and no one is ashamed to talk about it. Contrary to popular belief, I am not saying you should be. If you aren’t having sex, people tend to think something is wrong with you; morals have completely gone out the window. It is very rare these days, to find a young woman that is a virgin. Losing your virginity at a young age has become a standard and a way of life for most young girls. Young girls are getting pregnant everyday. With the media glorifying celebrity pregnancies, girls are beginning to think that pregnancy is glamorous and that it’s just a walk in the park. These girls have no idea what being pregnant does to your body, especially at a young age when your body isn’t physically ready to go through that.

So many complications come along with having sex. Besides the obvious things like pregnancy and STDs, sex changes who you are mentally and emotionally. Being twenty-two is already a struggle in itself; this is enough stress for me. I work my butt off everyday to get where I am. I am finally moving out and away from the comforts of living rent free, having my food paid for and my laundry done by someone else on a regular basis. I’ve got enough things to worry about! No need to throw in a boyfriend with an overly demanding sex drive. I like where I’m at in my life. Do I wish things were different sometimes? Of course I do, who doesn’t? However, if things were meant to happen this way, then this is how they will happen. I have a very hectic work schedule. Any time I have off is spent cleaning, hanging out with family and friends, running errands; and in the off chance that I get some alone time, sleeping. I’m not saying that I don’t have time for a boyfriend because, trust me, I will make time. But I just don’t have time to get emotionally caught up in anything.

Friends of mine have become my inspiration in a way. Now, even though the chances of their situations happening to me are slim to none, there are still valuable lessons learned. Recently, I sat down with a good friend of mine and we discussed our former high school classmates. A huge chunk of those girls have since gotten pregnant, married, or a combination of both. I don’t know their individual circumstances so I can’t judge or comment really, but something has to be said when a large majority of the girls I know have babies.

I had a friend in high school who thought that being a mom was the greatest thing in the world, and she’s right. The only problem with this theory is that she was a junior in high school. She was in a somewhat steady relationship with the guy she was sure she would never break up with, (she has since married another guy), and she got pregnant more than once. A few miscarriages, a few years and an abortion later, they finally ended their relationship. Now, at 24, she is happily married and pregnant with her second child and is in a good place now. Some of the other girls I went to school with aren’t in such a happy place. My point with all of this is that you never know what is going to happen. No matter how safe or smart you think you are being so many unexpected things can happen. And to most of us, statistically, a lot of these things will.

That's it for tonight, hopefully this series will inspire young girls and guys to wait.

Many blessings xoxo

Ryan Seacrest (Edited)

People in the entertainment industry, Athletes and everyone else who
gets paid millions of dollars to do NOTHING piss me off!

Don't get me wrong, I love going to the movies and seeing stars like Cameron Diaz and Patrick Dempsey in horrible attempts at romantic comedies as much as any girl! I too appreciate dancing around to Heidi Montag's latest musical venture. But seriously?? I mean come on... really???

The number of people in the world that are starving has reach a staggering ONE BILLION
PEOPLE.....!!! And counting! That is absolutely ridiculous!!!

I know the economy is hitting the United States pretty hard.. but the fact
that we are hurting so bad means other countries less fortunate are
hurting worse!

Ryan Seacrest signed a new American Idol contract and he will make $45 million for 3 years just to stand up and host a
show! And that is only 1 of the shows he does- he also Cohosts E! News
and a radio show! Not to mention he is the "executive producer" of pretty much every E! reality show including Keeping up with the Kardashians, Girls Next Door and Kendra. He has been named the highest paid reality host ever!
disgusting.

I just find it so strange that we can't get out of debt, but we can pay some actors $25 million to make a movie. I also
find it strange that we complain and moan about how tight our finances
are right now and why won't the government help us out- yet we help
single movies make upward of $250 million at the box-office... is this
strange to anyone else but me??

I really just felt the need to gripe about that. I think it's appalling and really, who needs to make THAT much money???

For up to the minute hunger statistics, visit http://www.stopthehunger.com/

Enough

Sometimes I feel invisible,
Like the world is oblivious to my feelings.
I try to suppress my tears,
But they always flow out like
A river spilling into a pool with no drain.

I often look in the mirror and think,
“Am I pretty enough?”
“Am I funny enough?”
“Am I smart enough?”
“Am I enough?”

Then I wonder if I've had enough
I wonder if I can take anymore.
Am I strong enough?
Is this life worth enough?
The world will see my true feelings.
The world will see all of my imperfections.
The world will know that I am enough.

Why Can't You?

Why can’t you see me?
Am I invisible?
I’ve been waiting all my life to find you,
Why won’t you find me first?

Everyday that I see you,
I wish that we could be together.
Why do you make the wrong choice every time?

Why can’t you see that the girl
You have been waiting for is
Right in front of you?
I wish you could see that
We were meant to be.

All night I look at the sky and I know
That you are looking at the same moon.
Our hearts were meant to be one,
Why can’t you see it too?

In Like

In Like
Time goes by and I fall deeper in like.
The world keeps spinning, but my mind completely stops.
I close my eyes and all I see is images of you.
My heart is racing but I can’t move.
And I’m in like.

Time is moving so slow.
I feel your arms around me, long after you’ve let go.
The sent of your body still lingers.
And I’m in like.

I try so hard, but something happens
When you look at me.
I lose all of my words, and all of my
Thoughts just disappear.
When you kiss me I go weak at the
Knees and my body melts.
And I’m in like.

Some things never change...

This is a letter I wrote to God 10 years ago when I was 13!!!

Dear God/Jesus/Daddy/King of Kings,

I know you have one perfect person for everyone, and I am sure that is true. I asked you to help me make the volleyball team and you did. I asked you to heal my ankle when I sprained it during cheer leading practice and you did. I know this is something I don't have to ask you for because you already know it, but I just want to make sure we are on the same page! So here is my list:

*He has to be a man of God. If he only goes to church on holidays, then we will have a problem.
*He must love and respect his parents. If he only has one parent like me, then he must put them before everything, except for you.
*He must be honest- even if his honesty might hurt someone.
*Can he have dark brown hair? And be taller than me? Just asking!
*God, if it's not too much to ask, can he whisk me away on a white horse? A brown horse would be find too- I'd just like there to be a horse!

Thank you, and I love you!
Amen
Brittany Nicole Gray

Well.. here I am 10 years later- still waiting to be found by my man of God on his white horse :o)